Nightmare

The past two nights have been plagued by pain. I’ve never had a lucid dream throughout this whole period of time here. Yet for two consecutive nights, I’ve been tormented by these stupid dreams.

Why am I being attacked on those very issues? The first, a heart-wrenching choice I didn’t make before I woke up. Or was it fate that had me wake just before making a choice, to remind myself that I had yet to make a choice myself in real life? The second, a fear that haunts me across my childhood years to now. I hadn’t realized what it meant to go into the shadow. For once, maybe I should say “I don’t want.”

But maybe these are lessons for me. To help me grow and learn. It could be coincidence, but I doubt it too. Perhaps, the real answer lies in going deeper into the shadow. And to at last, confront the repressed darkness within me, in an attempt to at last be one with myself.